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Guys have got to be the most confusing thing on this whole freakin' planet.

Ok so tonight after church MooBrandondork decides to literally serial-flirt with me and Shelby. The whole shebang too, touching laughing, play fighting, trying to dance with us. Good Lord. Poor Shelby. Haha. We got attacked with the works tonight. And the second moon and the shooting star. Oh dear. It just wasn't our night tonight. Haha.

MooChristopher dearest, I need to elaborate a little further on that with you.

Why do guys do that? The minute that they find out you no longer show and romantic interest in them, they have to have those feeling towards you.

And, me, Miss Bad At Showing Her Emotions, can't tell the people that she cares about the most how she honestly feels about them because she is so scared of losing them.

MooChristopher, wow you're in my blog alot tonight, maybe becuase you're like the only one who actually reads it. Anyways! This has to do with the RENT song.

I know it sounds like I'm on crack, but it's really really hard to tell people that stuff. Especially when you're as young as I am and in touch with alot of emotions most women don't figure out until their mid-40's.

So as I sit here eating my cheerios, I decided not to have a Song of the Day. Or Final Thoughts.

This is what you get tonight. A bag of Skittles to who can tell me what book this is from...

The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we've lives a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reasons. that means that this good-bye is both a good-bye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come.

When I look at you, I see your beauty and grace and know they have grown stronger with every life you have lived. And I know I have spent every life before this one searching for you. Not someone like you, but you, for your soul and mine must always come together. And then, for a reason neither of us understands, we've been forced to say good-bye.

I would love to tell you that everything will work out for us, and I promise to do all I can to make sure it does. But if we never meet again, and this truly is good-bye, I know we will see each other in another life. We will find each other again, and maybe the stars will have changed, and we will not only love each other in that time, but for all the times we've had before.

Yeah, I already know no one is going to guess.

The movie is actually better than the book, for a change. But this letter isn't in the movie, so yeah.

I'm done.